As you have learned, it is very difficult to understand other people and their behaviors. Nonetheless, understanding and appreciating “you” is quite doable.

Well I think it all started at school me and my cousin we liked Power Rangers and my cousin always chose the Pink Power Ranger (female), then this means that we identify with a woman? A child of 7 years, you think that is something important to discuss?, On the other side of me honestly if I like to represent the yellow Power Ranger and I do not know why, for more cool powers I do not know, but all this does not mean that we already have sexual orientation, age considered. Then a colleague from school heard, saw this in the selection of “Heroes,” I realized I did this, instead of choosing a male model. My cousin did not care.

So I think from there began to tell a gay, and this was at school and I reported this …

Then from there the story begins

I’m afraid to go out into the street, that people who treated me badly, I see my former colleagues from the bus, I’m always looking around to looking in the cars, I know it’s silly but I do, I can not go jogging to a site is like a mountain that I know is a good place to exercise but I am concerned that many buses go there Would you pass?

The people that I have not done anything wrong I do not care.

Buses scare me because there is a lot of people, my psychologist told him my problem, trotting in that “good place” he’s there, it’s an obstacle, I embarrassed because he knows my problem.

I no longer want to live in this city because I see the same people
contradiction is something I like to live in a big city, but where are they, who finished with my masculinity at the time.

Know why, because at that time I doubted myself whether my behavior, my movements or mannerisms were feminine, I knew not, so …

The fact is that when I was in college I was never shy, I never defended claims, the words gay, gay told me that every day (over three years) and that a man can be seen as feminine (tame), it does not say bad words, most of all liabilities, (for reasons I say that word?), then almost all of my forty companions began to tell gay every day 1st 2nd and third year of college for men only, I stand to go to the bathroom by the fact that I say this is “men’s bathroom,” not playing football, although he never liked me, all my classmates were playing, I think it is a very masculine sport, and I see me playing with them, as happened with bath and the curse, never used, I think are very important for life.

At that time I yelled from the bus even gay. I just wanted to get to my house and refugees. Came about to mourn.

I became shy without realizing, in fourth grade I changed my school, luckily that history was not repeated until leaving school.

This led me there was not spontaneous 11, 12 and 13 (at school) 19 years now and I think every day getting rid of it and I do not know cause or social phobia

Be good in a place where these people live.

Men intimidate me as a result, women have no problem, I am very spontaneous with them.

And I am angry with myself because I never did anything to help me, recently I told this to my parents.

Additional Information
I do not know if they know what hurts worse, I’m yawning excessively lately, I have to open your mouth for a long sigh as if achieving a deep breath that gives me pleasure, but then I feel I have to re-breathe the air for my chest, I hope I understand. Be anxiety or something …

To summarize, I am concerned that they see me on the street. And what once was a former colleague and I noticed I’m sure he probably said that I was gay or something like a stranger to me and a friend for him or …? made me look bad.
And I’ve never had a girlfriend, please no misunderstandings.

When I was in third year of puñetes I believe it took me so long and fell about gay. Help me understand everything.

When I changed the 4th college course and I told my new colleagues gay, or anything like that, I think it freed me, everything normal, but he was shy. That did about three friends and I underestimate them because they are ugly and shy, I have no male friends, is a quarrelsome man, daring, malhablado it intimidates me.

Currently

I’m in college and I took with my fellow men, they have told me gay, but very rarely and I do not know why, because I do not say bad words, I am not “done the male” or quarrelsome, for I am quiet, shy because they never showed anger, because they never answered (I think this is just ignored them and that is wrong), yet I have good character and gives a feminine appearance, I do not really know.

Please advise me, we are all psychologists.